Can you say frustrated?

The closer this project gets to it's actual realization; the closer we get to going to Utah, the more frustrating and stressful things get. I'm sure my blood pressure is going through the roof today and there are no possibilities of it coming down until after the dancers and I return from Utah. Today the dance teachers, my principal, Nelly and I all met with a man who works for the mayor at city hall. This man came to school to meet with all of us and to tell us some "important" things about traveling to the U.S. Like: the size and weight of luggage, what can and cannot be taken into the states, the process of flying and going through airports, and some cultural differences between Americans and Bulgarians. My principal, dance teachers, and Nelly all asked these questions to the city hall guy and paid rapt attention to everything he said. Sure...that's fine that the guy was telling all of these things...but I've told the Bulgarians the exact same things a dozen times already!!! I've thoroughly gone over every detail about traveling, passports, visas, going through customs, size and weight of baggage, how long traveling will be, what to expect at the airport, the process of changing planes, effects of jet-lag, as well as key cultural differences between Americans and Bulgarians. I don't know why they had to bring this other guy in to say the exact same thing! This seems to happen quite often. It's like they don't trust or believe anything that I tell them. They have to hear it from a Bulgarian who has traveled ONCE to America, where as I have traveled internationally half a dozen times and know the ins and outs of the major international airports. I know about traveling, about customs forms, about what can and cannot be taken over borders, and I know about American culture...I'm and AMERICAN! Grrrrrrr. I hate that they make me feel like they don't believe me. I know that this is a major event for all of them. None of the group has ever been to America, and none of them has ever traveled by plane before. So I can understand that they're nervous and want to know as much as they can about traveling. But why must they bring in another man to talk for an hour about the same things I've already told them and then act like they had never heard it before? Oy! This traveling is going to be a pain. I'll have to hold the hands of 19 nervous first time flyers. I can't wait to get to Utah. I just want to get there and see my family and sleep in my own bed...and then have the performances and show the group around my home-town area.

I've said a few times or more that I want to become mayor of my home-town sometime later in my life. But I'm not sure that I can do it. I have no diplomatic skills. You'd think after growing up working with the public I would have some pretty good people skills and now how to to put on the "happy" face. You know..."the customer is always right"? But I don't think I can do that. I was continually scolded by my poppie who'd tell me that you can't show irritation or anger when working with the public. You gotta let them think that they're right. Gotta keep things smooth, Well...sorry pop. I still haven't learned to do that. I've learned to control my irritation and anger a little bit, but not enough to hide it...not enough to be a public figure. Perhaps I will be able to work behind the scenes for my town, but I don't know that I'm cut out to be the figure head...because I've yet to learn not to rip faces off when people are being dumb and irritating me.